Motherhood is such a complex and tiring process. Do you know how it feels like ? On call for 24 hours. It's super frustrating when your child is fussy after you became all cranky from the lack of sleep for the past few months. It's especially annoying when you are one of the two people in the house that can make your child sleep. It's worst when you are try to get a light sleeper baby to sleep and others are just not sensitive enough to minimize their noise as they carry on with their activities.
I cannot remember when was the last time I had a peaceful sleep through the night. Having to wake up feeling fresh and recharged. I could not focus at work, my memory fails me and I feel so lethargic at work. I am just so sick and tired of having mother duties.
Yes, I am lucky that my in-law has a helper that is willing to help us take care while I worked. I thank God for her.
No I don't hate my baby, I am just being very frustrated having to become a mother. I love my baby.
